A trans woman was murdered in Morristown last week. Why am I, the Green Mountain Club’s Backcountry Construction Field Coordinator, relaying that in this space?
Because I began April at the LGBTQ Outdoor Summit, hosted at the National Conservation Training Center in Shepherdstown, West Virginia. To understand the joy I felt there, you must first understand that the world around me can be a dangerous place for my authentic self, and others like me.
That danger is not hypothetical; in some ways, it feels guaranteed. Trans lives are being questioned, attacked, and erased via legislative channels in more than 30 states, which emboldens hateful individuals and increases the threat of physical violence. I would love to separate this from my daily experience, but that is a privilege I do not hold.
I have been an “out” member of the LGBTQ+ community for about 26 years, and I have spent that time learning when to be loud and proud and when to err on the side of invisibility in the name of self-preservation. That holds true in outdoor settings — whether in my role as GMC staff or otherwise. Despite this, nature is home; it is in nature where I feel connected physically and spiritually. Over the years, I have led trail crews, student conservation groups, summer camps and more, hoping to help others feel safe and seen in the outdoors.
After more than two decades in trail work and conservation spheres, I attended my first ever LGBTQ+ specific space, thanks to GMC’s sponsorship. The summit started with a collective breath:
- Breathe in for a count of four and think about what you want in this space.
- Hold that breath for a count of four to solidify that desire.
- Breathe out for a count of four and let go of ALL the things that are not serving you.
- Hold that exhale for a count of four to give those unwanted things time to leave.
- For a count of four, breathe in ways that you can make the outdoor spaces we love safer for all, but especially for the LGBTQ+ and BIPOC communities around us.
- Hold onto that breathe for a count of four, and truly commit to that intention.
- Breathe out for a count of four, and let go of the things that could become roadblocks to you committing to this intention.
- Hold onto that exhale for a count of four to give those unwanted things time to leave.
How can you create a more inclusive outdoor community?
For those who do not find themselves consistently assessing their safety because of others’ perceptions, I invite you to feel that discomfort and reflect on ways that you can become an ally in outdoor spaces. It can be something small, like putting an ally pin or patch on your backpack. Remember that true allyship is rooted in action, and you must also be willing to step in and stop hateful narratives that are transphobic, homophobic, misogynistic, and racist when you hear them on the trail.Written by Scout Phillips, GMC Backcountry Construction Field Coordinator.
The mission of the Green Mountain Club is to make the mountains of Vermont play a larger role in the life of the people. We are committed to ensuring the GMC and Long Trail system are places that are inviting, safe, and open, regardless of age, gender, race, religion, ethnicity, ability, sexual orientation, or socioeconomic status.